Hmm... I've just been in this... well, how shall I say it... certain mood lately. Lashing out at people when I shouldn't. Feeling like I'm terrible, yadda yadda, same old tired rant. And it's just... I don't know.

People say I'm a great guy, I'm nice, I'm funny, I'm smart, whatever. Know what people? As nice as it is for you to say that, I can't believe you. Not right now. I believe it for a while, sure. And I put on a mask, pretend to be fine, and just move on. And it's just... argh. I want all of you people that are my friends to know this. I want the best for you guys. I want you to be happy. And it's just... I don't even know what it is.

I feel like I'm a bad friend at times. I just want you to know that I wish I was a better one. I just want you to know that. I'm not even sure why I'm in this mood. I just am. Wish I wasn't, but I am. It'll pass. It always does. I just want you guys to know that if I say something that's hurtful, if I lash out... I don't mean it. I don't want you guys to feel bad because of some stupid thing I say. I can be an idiot at times, and I hope you can look past it.

But it's hard for me to look past. I don't just want to give my friends my best. I want to give them perfection.